‘‘ Every cloud has a silver lining’’
Black Swan
Tuesday, May 31, 2011 4:24 PM


Just watched Black Swan. How can I describe it? Hmmm... It was tragic, thrilling and yet beautiful. But there were some parts where I totally skipped, because they weren't suitable for minors... *hinthint* Natalie Portman looks so skinny and pretty in the movie. I heard that she trained hard specially for this. Woah, I mean the movie turned out to be a pretty big hit, so her efforts were definitely worthwhile. However, I'm a bit overwhelmed. The ending isn't exactly what I've expected. Overall, needless to say, it was great.

Nina Sayers (Natalie Portman) is a young dancer with a prestigious New York City ballet company. She lives with her neurotic mother, Erica (Barbara Hershey), a former dancer who stopped her career when she was 28 and pregnant with Nina.
The ballet company is preparing for a production of Swan Lake. The director, Thomas Leroy (Vincent Cassel), has to cast a new principal dancer as he has forced his present principal dancer, Beth Macintyre (Winona Ryder), into retirement. The lead must be able to portray both the innocent, fragile White Swan and her dark, sensual, evil twin, the Black Swan. Nina is selected to compete for the part alongside several other dancers. Her audition goes badly, so she visits him later to ask him to reconsider and give her the role. He denies and tells her that her rigid technique makes her ideal for the White Swan, but she lacks the passion to dance the Black Swan. He then forces a kiss on her, until she bites him. Later on she is revealed to be chosen for the Swan Queen, the role she was previously denied. An intoxicated Beth angrily confronts Thomas and Nina, and she is later hit by a car and seriously injured in what Thomas believes was a suicide attempt.
Nina starts to witness strange happenings around her. Thomas, meanwhile, becomes increasingly critical of Nina's "frigid" dancing as the Black Swan, and tells her that she should stop being such a perfectionist and simply lose herself in the Black Swan role. She makes the aquantaince of Lily (Mila Kunis), a fellow ballet dancer in the company that Thomas previously commented on, as someone who has qualities that Nina lacks. The relationship cools down due to indiscretions on Lily's behalf, but to make up for it, Lily appears at Nina's door and invites her for a night out. Nina is hesitant at first, but decides to join Lily against the will of her mother. During the night, Lily offers Nina a capsule of Ecstasy. Upon returning to the apartment, Nina has another fight with her mother. She barricades herself in her room and has sex with Lily. Next morning, Nina wakes up alone and late for rehearsal, which she rushes to make on time. When she enters the studio, she finds Lily dancing as the Swan Queen in her absence. Furious, she confronts Lily, and asks her why she did not wake her up in the morning. Lily states that she spent the night with a man whom she met at the club and it is revealed that Nina imagined the whole sex episode.
Nina's hallucinations become stronger during rehearsals and at home, which culminates into a violent fight with her mother after which she passes out. Concerned about this erratic behavior, her mother tries to prevent Nina attending the opening performance, but Nina forces her way through and also insists that she is to dance, when Lily and the director are shown to be puzzled about her appearance since Nina's mother had called in and said that Nina was sick.
The first act goes well until Nina is distracted during a lift by a hallucination. The Prince drops her. Distraught, she returns to her dressing room and finds Lily there, dressed in the Black Swan costume. As Lily announces her intention to play the Black Swan, she transforms into Nina herself. Nina and her double wrestle--Nina shoving her double into the mirror and shattering it. She grabs a shard of glass and stabs her duplicate in the stomach. Upon realizing what she has done, Nina sees that the body is Lily's. Nina hides the body, returns to the stage, and dances the Black Swan passionately and sensually. Growing black feathers, her arms become black wings as she finally loses herself: she is transmogrified into a black swan. At the end of the act, she receives a standing ovation from the audience, appearing normal from their point of view. When she leaves the stage, she finds Thomas and the rest of the cast congratulating her on her stunning performance. Nina takes him by surprise and kisses him.
Back in her dressing room preparing for the final act, the dying of the White Swan, Nina is interrupted by a knock at her door. She opens it to see Lily, who has come to congratulate her on her performance as the Black Swan. Nina realizes her fight with Lily, just as all the strange visions she had experienced, was a hallucination, but sees the mirror is still shattered. She notices a wound on her body and realizes that she stabbed herself, not Lily. Back on stage, she dances passionately and seamlessly as the White Swan. In the last moments of the ballet, when the White Swan throws herself off a cliff, she spots her mother weeping in the audience. The theater erupts in thunderous applause as Nina falls. As Thomas and the rest of the cast enthusiastically congratulate her on her performance, Lily gasps in horror to see that Nina is bleeding. Though Nina lies wounded--perhaps dying--she is content. The film closes with her staring up at the stage lights, whispering "I felt it - Perfect - It was perfect," as the screen fades to white and the audience chants her name.

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Let's talk about love
12:16 PM

"with freedom, books, flowers, and the moon, who could not be happy?"

— Oscar Wilde

Went to school today with Zihui for English Oral! At first, I thought that we have to bring tie today and I was kind of worried since I didn't bring! But luckily, it wasn't exactly necessary. Chatted with Changlyn, Limin, Yiying and some other guys while waiting for our turns. I think that the waiting time was totally giving me the creeps. My tension was growing second by second. Anyway, I think I screwed up the conversation part. ): I misinterpreted the question at first and I think the teacher changed to another segment. SIGH WHY AM I SO STUPID? My oral examiner is a pretty cool American guy with dark skin hehe. I like his accent. ^^

Went home with Limin and Yiying. We went to 7 eleven because they wanted to buy @cash! Yiying was totally mad! She spent 30 bucks while Limin spent 20 bucks! Then, Yiying treated us to Koi! Woots yay milk tea with pearl! :))

Oh yeah guess what? Do you remember the time when I said I think I screwed up Chinese Oral? YEP. Guess how much I got in the end? 26/40! I totally thought I failed it for sure and I was super depressed. PHEW. I'm gonna practise hard to improve my Chinese. In addition, my results are very disappointing. I must make this holiday productive for me.

By the way, edited my blogger profile yesterday! I was just bored and I would like to provide a clear, detailed and thorough biography of myself. Hahah. Hoping that someone who has the same interests as me will stumble on my profile and maybe... Who knows? We might even become friends. :)

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Monday, May 30, 2011 7:40 AM

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”

— Anaïs Nin

Happy Birthday IM YOONA! ♥
Stay pretty as you are, Unnie. You're one of the most popular girls in not just SNSD, but also in the whole korea music industry. You are the ideal one of many. Proud to be a S♡NE. Love you. :)


1. Introduction
It seems to be that a particular sentence, gaze or style has been grabbing the attention of the public,
how much do we know about the YoonA we've been taking note of throughout the time?
She might seem to have a body figure which looks rather fragile and weak, together with a smile which has always made people go head over heels frequently, but in actual fact, YoonA has always been hiding her innocent and cute self of a 20 year old girl from the cameras.

During the interview, we used YoonA's role in certain parts of the lyrics in SNSD music as the theme for this interview. It's not an interview with all 9 girls in SNSD, but only YoonA herself, a one to one interview.
This is a report from the photo shoot venue, it can also be considered as a chat with YoonA, accompanied with her memorable laughter during the photo shoot. After the photo shoot, the phone conversation with her is still ongoing.

Afraid of getting in with her schedule and rest time, we asked a few casual questions regarding what she is doing now.
"Surfing the net, watching TV, reporting to other members what happened during a particular time. I am in Tiffany's room while having this phone conversation.
Tiffany keeps calling me to go out and have fun together. After hearing what happened during the interview earlier on, Tiffany said she was going to buy 2009F/W's new products to fill up the closet."

During the phone conversation with YoonA, there were many male fans surrounding me who are envious and filled with jealousy from what I see, there were some who tried using certain gifts to ask me to allow them speak over the phone with YoonA.

During the photo shoot, I had a sudden feeling of wanting YoonA in my arms. She worries about the opposite party during the phone conversation and that truly showed her sincerity to me, how is it possible to have people who dislike her?

What we have observed from YoonA, when she is feeling unwell, she will definitely voice it out, she is also able to speak her thoughts directly and clearly, she does not only keep bad comments in her heart, she will also try to understand it, and find a solution to her mistakes.

This is just enough evidence to show how a 20 year old girl is slowly growing up maturely. Worried about herself stepping into the entertainment industry at only 13 years old being too early for her, it eventually turned out well for her as her career has been positive throughout since then.

As the 'front cover' for Korea's most popular music group, her soft shoulders are tougher than we might have thought. This makes people want to send their best wishes to her wanting her to have a better future in her life and career.

Didn't SNSD say this before, tell me your wish. The lucky goddess, we'll be counting on you YoonA.

2. I was so shocked that I couldn't say a single word, I was thinking whether I should be angry or whether I should laugh it off, don't tease me because I'm young - Girls Generation

Q: Working in the entertainment industry for 2 years. There has always been a saying "Aigoo, my children" by an ahjussi, the presence of calling 'Unnies' has become more common than ever. And the juniors who start to address their seniors. Time flies, doesn't it?

A: It has been difficult while looking at my juniors. There has always been a regretful saying that "We are no longer the youngest now", all the love and care we used to get will go towards the juniors. It's a lie to say that we never felt threatened about this before,
but we used to get lots of love in the past, it's only right for the juniors to get the same amount of love as we had before. In the past, people got to know me only through the TV, that feeling is still magical when we reminiscence about it now.

Q: What are the childhood dreams of our 20 year old YoonA?

A: In the past, I got to know what the world looks like for adults through my sister who is of 5 years age difference with me.
When I turned 20 years old, I realized there weren't any special changes with this world. The friends I have made since young are still my friends now, my thoughts have not changed much since young. Because I'm still my original self.
Now, I roughly understand why adults say "Your body is 30 years old, but your soul remains 20 years old"

Q: Is it counted that your dreams has come true?

A: I appeared in CFs and magazines before I stepped into the entertainment industry, during those times, I thought "How nice it would be if I had the other members around me", and now we're already SNSD.
In the past, we often see our seniors, Super Junior, saying " We are Super Junior!" I felt that those words make people feel envious around the world. Even in theaters, there are advertisements of mine appearing, it's time for me to have an even bigger dream.
Not hand raised since young, but already coming from a rich family, wearing beautiful clothes in dramas, I feel that such roles are not bad. Maybe I'll try a role where a daughter inherits her wealthy parents wealth first.

3. Stupid baby, I prayed for this too - Perfect for you

Q: People seek for help from the gods when they are caught in a troubled situation. What would be the wish you would want for it to come true through praying?

A: We prayed before SNSD debuted into the entertainment industry. Because we are unaware of the public's reactions, we were also feeling worried back then.
Our first song "Into The New World", because we were practicing on it everyday, we got mixed up with positive and negative comments about the song over time.
Hence, we asked people around us to give us some judgments on our performance, some said it's good, some said it's not powerful enough, everyone had doubts at that period of time.
Hoping that during Girls Generation's debut, will bring a "Ah very fresh!" feeling to others. Hoping others could get motivations through us. We said to ourselves, "Let's work hard together!" like this by holding hands and praying together everyday.

Q: Are there any themes for YoonA's prayers? it's not about religious issues, we only want to know the things that has been troubling you and making you feel unhappy lately.

A: I'm very happy to have many targeted goals in life. I have been feeling that sometimes, we'll have to use more energy while carrying out our activities, I was worried if my body's energy is slowly depleting or not. Lately, I've been feeling feeble and weak, afraid that my body would not be able to take it any longer.
My focus on things seems to also have deprived. This is the first time I'm resting after 2 years of activities. Even though it's only a resting period for our album, I usually have to use this time for drama acting. But once a person starts to rest, he or she will continue wanting to rest more.
Although it's a short period of time, your emotions will be able to relax during this period of time. Being an actor, singer, now, I feel used to such activities/programs whenever I come across one.
Looks like I'll require some fresh new concepts and ideas to search for the motivation I used to have for me to work harder.

Q: It's time to give your daily life some time. As this opportunity is already given to you now, release all that you have been bearing through, take advantage of this opportunity and have fun.
A: There are days for us to rest during activities, the members put on their thinking caps and put in lots of effort to plan things out. Wearing caps to watch movies or eat something nice during the night.
It feels the best to stay at home and be 'lazy' right now, like the princess of the house.

4. A frustrated heart, a sorry heart, when can I show it to you, with a soft voice, I'll tell it to you closely so only you can hear - Baby Baby

Q: Everyone will definitely have something they regret or are worried about. Do you have any problems left unsolved? Tell us softly.

A: Uh...There's always a thinking that we must perform especially well in front of others, in front of the public. You will have be very careful of what you say in public.
"Saying something like this, or doing an action like that, will make others feel uneasy, will lead to hatred towards you?" Such examples will make me feel worried, giving me headaches. As such examples slowly accumulate, it will be very tough, hence it will make you want to change your behavior and attitude.

Q: Everyone in Korea knows me, when you think about "me", you might feel a bit afraid don't you. Especially as a 20 year old "me" in an idol group. How do you overcome such situations?

A: I'm the type who would discuss with someone whenever I feel frustrated in mind. Looking for members, the coach, or other unnies in the entertainment industry. Because they are the ones who has watched me grow up since young.
I'm lucky as the people around me gave me good suggestions. And yeah, Hyoyeon unnie is usually the one who would lend a ear to my troubles, and to only sleep when the sun rises.

Q: As a idol, there would always be misunderstandings. It's good to see that you are capable of coping with such misunderstandings as most would have thought that it is rather hard to, you must be really lucky.

A: When discussing unhappy moments, it will remind you of the incident, and make yourself or others feel unhappy about it. If I spoke the truth, maybe there would be somebody who would tell me "Ah, so that is the case" and understand me.
Actually, while speaking of these unhappy moments, you would want to be careful about it and would also feel a bit afraid about it.
What I have said earlier about performing well in front of others seems to be acting up now. There may be people who dislike or like me, but before speaking about it, you will start to feel afraid about it.
But such troubling issues seems to have made one feel used and tired of it already.

5. Where are you, i waited a long time. The glow was pretty in that alleyway - Merry Go Round

Q: From "9 Ends 2 Outs" to "Unstoppable Marriage" "You Are My Destiny", to "Cinderella Man", among these dramas, you've been the lead actress for two of them. Although you might have been ready before you stepped into the entertainment industry, but from a company's perspective, you have advanced way quicker than anyone have thought. Won't you feel afraid about this?

A: Looking at such comments on the internet "Already undergoing years of acting training, it would not be wise for people to be understanding towards her just because she lacks experience in acting." This is not really an excuse, you would not know how the battlefield looks like before you step into the battlefield, after stepping into the actual battlefield, you would feel the difference.
It's different while undergoing training, you will not be in perfect shape the whole time.
My seniors taught me that acting is an accumulation to your experience. "As the years go by, your true potential will increase too. You will then be able to cope with acting roles which may seem difficult to you from the beginning." these words gave me a deep impression.
It makes me want to do my very best in acting, I will accept whatever I can get. I believe my acting skills will slowly improve. Sometimes I feel rather embarrassed when I watch my own acting. I even felt it myself, so I am able to understand some of the negative comments I have got. Compared to getting hurt when receiving negative comments, these comments instead give me the motivation to do better in future.

More information at <> November's issue.

YoonA InStyle Interview 1
* Mesmerized over Girls Generation!
The Power of Girls Generation has been overwhelming. Taking part in different music programs and CFs, they seem to be the leading 'Fashion Leader' for many famous brands, this is also a sign to decide on the present generation for idols, especially with those tight jeans and marine outfits which made them as a fashionable Girls Generation, this also made the group's existence unique as well.
Among the group there is a member who is gaining lots of attention lately, and that is none other than YoonA.
Although she looks feeble, but she resembles a chameleon which is capable of displaying many different types of charming abilities, she has been juggling with roles of an actor and a singer frequently, to others, it might seem to look like YoonA has not been getting ample time to rest.
"My schedule is already packed until the end of the year, I would love to travel overseas with my friends, but I do not have the time to", from her cute facial expressions to looking like a doll which possesses a beautiful face and slim body, YoonA has been the most popular member who got the most attention from the public compared to the other members.
Apart from having such beautiful appearance qualities, YoonA has another side of herself which shows her playful and child like self "I'm still not quite comfortable with having thick makeup, some types of makeup were not suitable, that is why I only do light makeup most of the time, just like today's makeover, do you guys feel that I look like a stranger here?" (Laughs)(Note: You'll have to refer to the images I provided above to see her makeup)

+ Other members of Girls Generation voted you as the member with the best skin qualities, what is your secret to your beautiful skin?

First of all, you will have to be aware of your personal cleanliness, and also having plenty of sleep if you are able to. To sleep well, set the lights to partially dim, creating a better environment to allow yourself to sleep better and comfortably.
Also, to have better absorption, you will have to do something with your base and powder products, and that is warming. Soak the towel in warm water, and apply it onto your face, that way, your products will allow better absorption.

+ What are the common troubling problems faced concerning skin nowadays?

The skin being dry and having acne are the most troubling issues, if it's during rest time, you can still undergo skin treatment and care, because of time constraint, you can't really go for one even if you need it.
if there are any important photoshoots, I will use a cotton swab and dip a bit of normal saline solution around the acne, and then spread it over the acne using the cotton swab.

there's a slight effect on removing harmful substances and also a use for shrinking, after that, I will use acne removing products and apply them on.

+ Is there anything you are not satisfied with your face or body?

My feet are 245mm wider, even if the size of a beautiful shoe is increased, it will not look quite the same after I wear it. As much as I would like to wear those small and nice shoes, unfortunately I can't. Another thing I'm unsatisfied about are my eyes.(Even translating this gave me a shock, her eyes are gorgeous enough already don't you think so?)

+ What are the brands that you have on your dressing table?(Translator's note: or makeup table, not really sure about these kinda stuff heh)

I use the same room as Yuri, our makeup products are kept in the cupboard because we don't have a dressing table, I use 3 types of perfume, the one I prefer the most is the ISSEY MIYAKE perfume, I also use the same brand for my body lotion.
I like to use bright colored lipstick because my lips are rather pale, I'm using VIDI VICI HONEY lipstick these few days. I do not put on makeup frequently, hence I do not have many makeup related products, the rest are SHUUEMURA FOUNDATION, BOBBIBROWN and PINK SHADOW.

YoonA InStyle Interview 2
+ Your unique charm?

I'm actually not very feminine like how others look at me, people who are close to me will tell me that I am outgoing, I'm not sure if that's the reason,
I saw a survey report regarding my popularity, I am more popular with the girls compared to guys, another thing about me is how I love to joke around (Laughs)
Because I am usually with the other members, they share the same GAG CODE as me as well, and we joke together quite oftenly.

+ While watching television, is there a particular acting role you would want to take up?

Yes, I do! I would take up an acting role that is similar in terms of my age. In both dramas and , my acting role is similar to a person who is in her 20s, there were some things I do not understand while acting these roles.
So I hope to take up a lively acting role close to my age, and carry out expressions naturally for it.

+ What do you do during your free time/resting time?

There's nothing special actually, the members and I will catch movies & have meals together, that is all.

I'll either watch the television or use the computer to kill time in the dorm.

+ Regardless of age and gender, you are loved by many, have you ever felt a burden over this?

It would definitely be a burden. My blood type is B(Translator's note: She is most probably saying this because people of the same blood group should not be behaving the same way as she is now), but I am constantly worrying about what might happen in the future, I am also very concerned over what others view me as.
Hence I will look for other members or friends to discuss over my thoughts whenever I feel really pressurized, also to get their viewpoints and suggestions as well, I am not the sort of person who bottles things up.
I am very concerned with what the public thinks about me as Girls Generation has been gaining a lot of attention from the public lately, hence there is always a strong feeling that we should not disappoint our fans and the people around us.

+ Between an actor and a singer, which role is much more interesting to you?

It's difficult to make a choice, as both have their own unique charms, they do have differences though, as a singer on stage, listening to the cheers and applauses from fans, makes you feel really satisfied and happy, the presence of other members also gave me strength,
whereas as an actor, you will feel lonely because you are acting alone, you will not be able to come close to your fans too, I feel regretful about this point.

+ You are slightly slimmer compared to others, do you have any special routines for yourself?

I don't exercise much on a daily basis, I will ride the bicycle during summer, but recently my schedule is packed and in addition to that, the weather is cooling, hence I will not ride the bicycle often.
As I am always practicing dancing with other members, I do not have a fixed routine for exercising, while practicing, my energy is used the same way like exercising too.


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These are some old Yoona's interviews hehe. Anyway, gotta go school later in the afternoon. Will be back by evening. In fact, I have to go to school for the whole of this week except for Thursday. NOW WHERE'S MY HOLIDAYS~?

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Replay Replay Replay
Sunday, May 29, 2011 7:23 AM

On 26 March 2011, SHINee's Replay (Japanese Version) was released! Hehehe Yoona is inside! ♥

"Taemin looks different. I wonder why. But I still love him. DANCE TAEMIN!
Key with glasses! *___* DIVA KEY!
Onew looks cuter x 1000! DUBU ONEW!
Minho is still as handsome as always!(Flaming Charisma) RAPP MINHO!
Jonghyun! Bling Jonghyun!"

Yesterday was dream concert 2011! Many artistes went there to perform! Victoria looks so prettyaye. f(x)/SHINee/2pm/T-ara jjang!

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The fact
Friday, May 27, 2011 3:25 PM

my free 100plus!

Today, we had GG duty again! That's because today is the Sports Carnival. So we didn't join our class and was in charge of mixing 100 plus drinks. Hehe. But I know Changlyn was really disappointed with me because I promised her that I would be back after 1 hour. The truth was, I didn't feel like going back at all. And since Zihui and Peishan had to stay since they were in charge, I stayed till recess too. But I saw the sadness spread on her face, so I knew she must be very lonely without me. I know that feeling too... ): I'm so sorry, Changlyn.

We got dismissed at 12.30pm and I went to starbucks with Vanessa. Ordered hot caramel macchiato, which tasted great. ^^ Talked a lot of meaningful stuffs there. After that, we went home. :)

Dear Hongki, you're so handsome ♥.

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They don’t teach you anything worth knowing.
Thursday, May 26, 2011 4:48 PM

“I’ve been making a list of the things they don’t teach you at school. They don’t teach you how to love somebody. They don’t teach you how to be famous. They don’t teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don’t teach you how to walk away from someone you don’t love any longer. They don’t teach you how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind. They don’t teach you what to say to someone who’s dying. They don’t teach you anything worth knowing.”
— Neil Gaiman

My classmate of 3 years, Caoyang, is leaving us for America to further her studies. Frankly speaking, I feel pretty upset at this news. Even though we rarely talked, the memories we shared together are still precious. I don't want her to go, and I'm regretting the fact that I didn't try to bond more with her. This morning, we celebrated her farewell by taking pictures together, as a class, as her friends. We even spent the whole English period playing games and making her feel loved. I sent her a text message yesterday, wishing her all the best in everything that she does. This leads me to pondering deeply over this famous quote, "Absence makes the heart grows fonder." Rather true. It seems that humans are too narrow-minded to think selflessly and refuse to cherish what they have until one fateful day, the important things vanished in front of their very own eyes. All the best, I'll miss you, Caoyang.♥

Recently, I hadn't been happy even though this week is officially the last week of school term. This is worsen by the fact that my whole of next week, which is the first week of holidays, is fully packed. I have to go back to school for projects/English Oral/extra remedials. This isn't what I've desired. I didn't expect my holidays to be so crammed up, especially since I have CCA/CIP work/ and I may leave for overseas to visit my grandmother.

On Tuesday, we had our Chinese oral. It was held in the hall, at the same time which other different classes. Though the atmosphere was tensed, Ziwei, HwanLing, Limin, Yi Ying and me were chatting and laughing loudly. Ziwei and I were spazzing over SNSD and kpop while HwanLing and Limin were trying to be the anti-fans. It was great. :-) However, my turn came and I don't wish to elaborate, but I knew I screwed up because my oral examiner prompted me a lot of times and even gave me negative remarks. It's a bit awkward, though, since LLF (my previous Chinese a.k.a form teacher of 2 years) was my oral examiner. Even after I greeted her and settled down, she immediately remarked on my fringe. I know it's quite long now and I do have plans to trim it soon, probably during the holidays. It really makes me wonder if having someone you know to test you is a good idea, because I really felt uncomfortable and I knew I did badly... ):

Yesterday, during SS, we were supposed to sit in our groups for FPSP (Future problem-solving project). Limin didn't have a group at first and she asked if she could join. However, Changlyn, Kevin, Hing Yi and me had already formed our own group but I still agreed and told her I'll try to get her into our group since teacher said that we could have 4 or 5 members in one group. The whole day, I was really worried because Kevin said he had already asked someone else to join our group. But, what about my promise to Limin? You could say I was tormented at that point of time. The dreaded moment came and we sat in our groups but in the end, don't ask me why, (things happened too fast I can't comprehend and put them into words), WJ was the one who joined us. I knew she was disappointed and hurt... All I could say was "I don't know". Seriously?! I could have come up with a better excuse. I'm really a horrible person. I broke my promise. I hurt someone. And I know she trusted me. I'm rotten to the core. I feel so disgusted with myself sigh.

The good thing is, we still talk today and I really pleaded with her so that she could forgive me. She was kind and said that she's okay. I know, chances don't come easily. I got to learn to be a better person from now on.

Today, after school, I waited for Ms Ong for a whole hour so that I could do my math filing. I was annoyed to the maximum because I was carrying a hell load of things in my bag and on my hand! Unfortunately, today was the day that we were supposed to clear our stuffs in our lockers... I THINK I LOOKED LIKE A TURTLE TODAY UGH.



Who the hell was I?
Saturday, May 21, 2011 7:15 AM

Went to Vivo for batch outing and came home at about 6 plus. It was fun hahaha. Bought photo frames at Daiso and had lunch at Superdog. It was my first time trying out their food. It tastes pretty good, IMO. After that, went outside to sit at the seats surrounding the huge stage. I think we made a lot of noise there while we were decorating the photo frames hehe. Took lots of photos that day. ♥


ROD was yesterday! IT WAS DAMN FREAKING FUN! We wore full-u yesterday and had our promotion ceremony first. Next was our ROD! :D The sec 3s went to hide with the ROD cards that we specially designed for them while they had to find us and we must run so that they wouldn't catch us! I got busted just as soon as it started. I shouldn't have hidden at the lift lobby... .___. Now I'm regretting. When they found us, we made them do forfeits before they could receive the cards. Hahaha we made Jamie says she loves *coughcough* and WanYing says she loves *coughcough*. Pardon me for that. :3 Did squats together and next was our cake cutting ceremony.

Here's what I've drawn on my cover page. :)

Then we ate food, watched a video which Jiayun made, and the sec 1s performed 'Just the way you are' by Bruno Mars while the sec 2s danced 'Sorry Sorry' by SUJU which consists of some drills lol. Overall, i think they were great. :) Then, it was the 'Crying Ceremony'. We gave out our gifts and some people cried. Even Puiyee and Vanessa Wong cried. The seniors said their speeches and we all cheered. Took group photos, did our last Kulua Baris and last came the exciting part! The battle between the sec 3s and sec4s! Puiyee, Jasmine, Clarice and me went to the girls' toliet and filled water balloons. Zihui was distracting the sec 4s by commanding them in their drills. We filled up 2 buckets in total, which were really heavy. We wanted to throw at them, but they knew something was amiss and started to ran and went to hide! We were waiting for them in the circle area and looking around for them but they were nowhere to be seen! It was actually quite late by then, about 7pm. The stupid thing was that I keep bursting my balloon on myself and ended up getting wet. Jasmine is evil! She threw a direct hit on me... ): Then we realised that our stuffs, (we changed into black tee and pants), including my GG stuffs and handphone were gone! LOL WHAT A FAIL PLAN. We were supposed to prank them and yet... they got their revenge. School was closing very soon and we went to retrieve our things and quickly wore our shoes. The sec 4s also came out lol. Even tough I was drenched, I honestly think it was still so fun! :D Went home with batch, laughed together, and talked to the seniors and teased them about their boyfriends haha, especially Jamie! Her bf waited for her hahaha. *awww so sweet*

Came home at about 8 plus and I was drained.

Dear seniors, I'll miss all those moments we spent together as a whole. Even though you guys are leaving us, we'll always remember you. All of you were awesome to the ultimate, I love you ♥

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do they collide?
Monday, May 16, 2011 5:04 PM


Today's a great day hahaha. We had chinese listening comprehension examination today, which lasted less than 30 minutes before we were free to go home! Came to school together with Zihui (bitch ♥) in the morning by coincidence. We haven't really talk much in ages, with her being the new company leader of girl guides and partly due to our MYEs. I laughed a lot, hahaha thanks dear. :)~

Rushed home immediately after school to bathe and got dressed because we were going to Ikea restaurant for lunch! Woohoo baby! The food was absolutely great. We ordered so much, including meatball pasta, meatball meal, chocolate mousse, chicken wings and Daime cake! The meatball meal (the first picture at the top) tasted wonderful. Everything about it was perfect, like the jam and the swedish sauce and the meatballs!~ The Daime cake (second pic) is also some *magic* that you just have to try! However, I kind of regret buying the chocolate mousse because it's all made up of cream and I was too stuffed to eat it already! I love my pasta but the soup-of-the-day today was prawn soup, which unfortunately didn't fit my taste. I was looking forward to the mushroom soup actually. ):

All right, enough about food. Afterwards, we walked around the showroom to view all those pretty furnitures and stuff. Then, we went to Queensway shopping centre to look for sports stuff! I think we walked quite a bit today... My legs are sore now...

I feel kind of guilty for not going to class outing today. Moreover, only a few people went. They must be so sad without me. :'( But yay, tomorrow is a public holiday and we have GG batch outing at Vivo woohoo! ♥

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Happy birthday Sunny!
Sunday, May 15, 2011 7:44 AM

Sunny unnie, you're already a year older now. SNSD started in 2007. It has been 4 years since debut now. Although it may feels like I'm always neglecting you, but it's definitely not the case. You're very important, to all sones and Girls Generation. All the more, Sunshiners love you. You are the last member to join the group and the smallest of them all. I remember watching you being the first best mum on SNSD Hello Baby. You're so impressive, just like the rest of them. Your aegyo makes everyone surprised hahaha. Stay pretty, sunny and forever Girls Generation! Saranghae!♥

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Who will fall far behind?
7:12 AM

See the title? I don't usually type in chinese but this will be one of the few occasions.

This really adorable paper bag is from The Body Shop! Just thought it was too cute for it not to be photographed. I didn't eat a proper dinner yesterday because we didn't go out! All we ate were junk food, like popcorn, toast bread and etc. This is absolutely rare. Normally, mum would always ensure that we get to eat a full meal or she will nag at us.

One of my favourite songs these days is 'Skinny Love' by Birdy. I don't usually listen to this genre of songs but again, I feel this songs is very unique. I heard that this song is one of the theme song in Vampire Diaries and that makes me totally tempted to watch the show! Apparently, the original version is by Bon Iver. However, I still prefer this version betetr. I guess it is more soothing for me. Then again, I think there are still so many shows which I haven't watch. Worse, I haven't finish watching Yongseo, JoIn and Khuntoria on We Got Married. Yeah, just call me slow or just shoot me whatever.

'Who will love you? Who will fight? Who will fall far behind?'

Just saw this hahaha! AWWW Nichkhun! ♥

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moments like this
Saturday, May 14, 2011 7:31 AM

Was intending to update yesterday but blogger was down! Yesterday was officially the last day of MYE. Amaths was really difficult. T.T But after the paper, i came home, bathed and got dressed before going to West Mall with Wenxin, Yuanrong, Weibin and Weetiong. We went to eat KFC (YR's favourite) for lunch before going into the cinema to watch BEASTLY. I think it's pretty good but it's not that interesting though. Oh which reminds me, I watched Despicable Me again with Sis last Saturday night. It'ssososooosososocuteeee!♥

But Vanessa Hudgens is really pretty yeah. I'm beginning to like her more and more after 'that' incident a few years ago when they were shooting HSM3. Oh yeah, i feel kinda sad that she broke up with Zac Efron... NOOOO. ): They look good together. After the movie, we walked around looking for presents to buy. In the end, we went to JP, walked around then bought what we wanted.

Since exams are finally over, I should be happy but i don't really feel like it's over, get what I mean? It's a bit weird, tbh. *sigh*

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"You're my life now."
Sunday, May 8, 2011 7:45 AM

Assam Milk tea from tealicious!

I'm so lazy to post sighhhh. Having a headache now due to yesterday's mugging and because I was watching the General Elections. But, i watched a bit of it and went to sleep lol. The weather's freaking hot nowadays! I seriously can't stand the heat! asfasgdajab @%^!$%^@$!%^@$^ what's with global warming... .___.

I still feel the obligation to keep my blog intact though. Maybe I shall just add on a few more things. Recently, my tumblr has been getting really weird followers with names like 'XXX127621'. Yeah, their names followed by some random numbers. I think they might be some bots. x.x I don't know. I just don't dare click on them. What if they can send viruses? Lmao to think that i thought that only twitter is the only one that's infested with all these 'robots'... BUT DEFINITELY NOT TUMBLR PLEASE! ):

Yeah, basically, this is what I'm feeling right now. I feel bad for my readers sometimes, because my blog is absolutely boring and I don't really post quality posts so often! Instead, I post short posts and just spice them up with some really cute/cool images then publish them. I do feel guilty, of course. Even now, I'm ranting. Perhaps I will try my best to do quality and lengthy posts in future after my MYEs. I think I'll swear that. You can take my words for it. :)

Actually, my life up to now can be described as 'a roller coaster ride'. I guess this applies for all, maybe? Because life has so many ups and downs that when you fall, you just have to pick yourself up again or else you'll be eliminated straight away.

Shall end here. Have a nice day! ♥

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Children's day interview - SNSD
Saturday, May 7, 2011 8:54 AM


Question 1: SNSD noonas (older sister), why do you cry every time you win 1st place?”

SNSD: “Hello. We’re SNSD.”

Tiffany: “Do we cry every time we get 1st place? Yes, I think so.”

Yuri: “Of the nine, I think at least one of us always cries.”

Tiffany & Hyoyeon: “Every time we get first place, I think we cry because we are so happy and our hearts are filled with joy.”

Question 2: “Sooyoung noona, since your name is Sooyoung, are you good at ’soo young’ (swimming)?”

SNSD: “No! She can’t! Sooyoung can’t swim!”

Sooyoung: “However, my name doesn’t come from the sport, swimming. The ‘Soo’ is from ‘exceptional’ and the ‘young’ is from ‘honor’. When you guys get older, you will start to learn Chinese characters. As you learn the Chinese characters, you will find out the meaning of my name. It has nothing to do with swimming, but if all the children want, I’m thinking about learning to swim starting this summer. Please cheer me on!”

Question 3: “SNSD unnies (older sisters), I want to grow out my hair, too. What should I do to grow it out?”

Hyoyeon: “Keep thinking, ‘My hair is growing, my hair is growing..’.”

Sunny: “My hair is growing…”

Tiffany: “If you eat well, your hair will grow well.”

Yoona: “That’s true! If you eat a balanced meal and eat lots of protein, your hair will grow fast.”

Taeyeon: “I heard black beans are good.”

Tiffany: “If you listen to your parents well, it will grow faster.”

Hyoyeon: “Uhh… that’s true!”

Question 4: “Do you like SHINee better? Do you like Super Junior better? Of the two, who are you closer to?”

Tiffany: “We can’t pick!”

Taeyeon: “We like them all.”

Hyoyeon: “Super Junior members are cool oppas (older brothers). And SHINee members are cool juniors…

Tiffany: “So we can’t pick, right?”

Hyoyeon: “Right!”

Question 5: “SNSD noonas, what are your phone numbers? Give me your cellphone numbers.”

Yuri: “1004~ Noona’s number is 1004~” (In Korea, 1004 spells out chunsa, which also means ‘angel’)

Yoona: “010~”

Tiffany: “My number is _ _ _~ _ _ _ _.”

Sooyoung: “More than greeting you through phone, us noonas get much more help when you watch us and cheer us on when we are on stage. Young children, please cheer on SNSD.”

Question 6: Why do you only wear shorts, even during the winter? Aren’t you cold?

Sooyoung: “We are cold. (Looking at Jessica.) It’s cold, right?”

Jessica: “Yes, it’s cold. Very.”

Hyoyeon: “It’s because it matches well with the song and looks pretty…”

Sunny: “It’s also to make us look healthy.”

Yoona: “When we’re not on stage, we wear long pants.”

Tiffany: “When we’re not on stage, we wear many layers!”

Yuri: “Young children, don’t copy us and wear shorts when it’s cold outside. Wear long pants and always take care of your health.”

Question 7: SNSD noonas, do you get nervous when you go up on stage? When are you the most nervous?”

Sooyoung: “When are we the most nervous? I think we’re most nervous right before they reveal 1st place. When we are performing on stage, we enjoy the stage, so we get the most nervous right before they reveal 1st place… And I think we cry more because we are nervous.”

Jessica: “Yes. That’s true.”

Sunny: Young children, stay healthy and listen to your parents and teachers. Get along with your friends. Also, please give lots and lots of love to SNSD.

SNSD: Young children, bye~ Right now is SNSD. I love you♡”


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credits to :allkpop.com

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Perfect for You
Friday, May 6, 2011 2:57 PM

Happy birthday dad!:))

See the title? Yeah, SNSD hwaiting! ♥ Today hasn't been a good day, but I feel happier now that i'm listening to SOSHI's songs. I love them a lot. :)

YAY IT'S FRIDAY FRIDAY! FUN FUN FUN~ Hahaha ignore me i'm being spastic here. This week is pretty much normal, except for the fact that yesterday was the start of MYEs. So far, we are done with Emaths, Chinese, English and Social Studies papers. When I was doing SS today, I could feel blisters forming on my hand. Wrote 6 full pages for it! I do hope i'll do well or naturally, I'll be disappointed. 'Expectations come with regrets.'

Accidentally bought a drink with rum and raisins in it! I could actually feel it burning in my throat gosh! I think I'm mad. What did I do? OH GOSH. No wonder the cashier was looking at me with such a queer expression. I should look carefully next time or it will be throwing money down the drain again. X.X

Bringing you Friday by Rebecca Black! :DDD No hating please thanks. XOXO.

And to cushion the above impact *coughcough*, bringing you another video but THIS TIME, IT'S AWESOME TTM. ☺

You chased after
the leaves
and forgot about
the tree
you see what
is getting away
but you forgot what
roots the ground
for you.

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Monday, May 2, 2011 7:50 PM

Fragile- breakable, easily broken, dainty, delicate, fine, flimsy

Honestly, I can't believe that MYEs are starting this Tuesday! I didn't even notice that it was already May until I realize my mum's birthday yesterday. I'm panicking now, breaking into cold sweat and unable to withstand all the whirled emotions I have in my head. Don't you think that I'm kidding, I'm warning you, because I'm so not! Spent my whole weekends and the whole of today studying and absorbing as much information as I could, though I can't deny the fact that I did procrastinated a little. At least I didn't go overboard. In fact, I think I had a rather productive weekends. Perhaps there were still some moments when I did allowed my mind to wander a bit far off...

Anyway, just posting to announce that I've 500 followers on tumblr as of now. Seriously, I do appreciate every one of my followers. &, I feel honoured + special + unique because I have really lovely people following me. It has been almost a year now since I first opened my tumblr. I guess, it's sort of an achievement. But the numbers don't matter. XOXO. ;)


live and let live
Sunday, May 1, 2011 2:27 PM

Hi! Yesterday went out to eat Bento Set at Umi Sushi, then we bought HongKong milk tea from Tealicious. It does taste great, so to speak. :) Afterwards, we loitered around Harris with the intention to buy some correction tapes. However, it doesn't have the brand which I usually use, so I ending up looking at books instead. I did see some great titles around and I honestly felt like buying them all! I'm not going to deny the fact that I'm sort of like a bookworm haha. Some books which thoroughly interest me are 'Norwegian Woods', 'Sing you home' and 'Precious'. They look pretty good! Gotta buy them all someday! *shall add them to my wishlist* After spending a wee more time glancing around, I spotted the whole series of 'The Twilight Saga'. Instantly, I felt proud of myself because I owned a set of those in my bookshelf too. :-) Besides this, I looked around to find the whole series of Roald Dahl's books! Ahhh those good old days when I used to enjoy reading these books. I was in awe of myself and amazed to find that I've read almost all of his books!

I remember all the books I've read include: Matilda, The BFG, Charlie and the chocolate factory, Charlie and the great glass elevator, The magic finger, The Giraffe the pelly and me, James and the giant peach, The witches, Fanstastic Mr Fox, Danny the champion of the world and George's marvelous medicine. These are not all, because I've also read books by Roald Dahl written for adults, namely, The Tales of the Unexpected. Roald Dahl certainly has a unique way of telling stories, and these books can make your imagination run wild. Needless to say, I do love how he describes his stories vividly and smoothly! Even up till now, I still keep some of his books at home because I can't bear to throw them away. I seriously think it's a shame if these great books are wasted in such a manner.

Well, that's enough for now! I do hope you'll enjoy these books which I've recommended as much as I do. :)

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dear mum
7:24 AM

Happy birthday mum!:))

Anyway, I kinda forget some more things that happened over the week. Back with some photos from Speech day!

So basically, it was about to rain before the contingent and we were all praying that it won't or else the contingent people would be so disappointed since they trained hard for this... :/ But luckily, it didn't! :) That's why everything went smoothly that day! ♥

standing broad jump
→ On Monday, during PE, my teacher wanted me to jump my SBJ again. At the first try, I sorta failed. But on the second try, I got a whooping score of 161cm! Yay that's like the first time! So yeah, it's my second time getting a gold for NAPFA since last year. *happy*

smurfs village
→ Hahaha i'm level 17 already! After so long! :P

MYEs starting next week
→ Yep, won't be able to update so much on this blog. But i will still post on my tumblr! XOXO. Click!

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